Thursday, July 9, 2009

Me 'n' Clive

I'm going through a bit of a fixation. It happens quite often that when I discover a fresh idea (or a new restaurant, a strange word, an original film, etc.) I find it terribly intriguing and cannot leave it alone until I've had my fill of it. I am positive it becomes annoying to those who see me every day, but some things are just so lovely that it's impossible for me to resist their charm. Well, world, meet my newest fascination:

Professor Clive Staples (Jack) Lewis
Born: 29th of November 1898
Died: 22nd of November 1963

Yes, my dears, this is C.S. Lewis. Novelist, academic, medievalist, literary critic, essayist, lay theologian, Christian apologist, and genius extraordinaire. (I added that last bit, though many would concur.) He was born in Belfast, Ireland into a good, Christian home but fell into Atheism at the age of fifteen. At 33 he became, once again, a Christian and affiliated himself with the Church of England. His conversion is quite a story, but I'll use his words when he said that he came into Christianity "kicking, struggling, resentful, and darting his eyes in every direction for a chance to escape." (From his book "Surprised by Joy".)

It seems to me that prodigals' conversions tend to be the most lasting, and this is most certainly true for Mr. Lewis. You've all heard of "The Chronicles of Narnia." I grew up on these stories, most especially "The Magician's Nephew" and "The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe", however I never knew how intrinsically connected they were to the teachings of Christ until more recently.

"Mere Christianity" is one of those books that I simply cannot get enough of. I honestly cannot understand how one mind of such previous disbelief could wrap itself around ideas so enormous and translate those ideas into language. Or perhaps it is the fact that he simplifies things in such a way as to completely undress human nature that is so incredible. I took a highlighter to my copy of this book, and after a few chapters decided it would be more sensible to highlight the parts that were not of any use to me. I saved a lot of ink. I did not have to highlight a single word after that. C.S. Lewis uses logic and common sense to explain how Christianity is the only plausible explanation for life or matter of any kind. Just brilliant.

Listen to this:

"... the real problem of the Christian life comes where people do not usually look for it. It comes the very moment you wake up each morning. All your wishes and hopes for the day rush at you like wild animals. And the first job each morning consists simply in shoving them all back; in listening to that other voice, taking that other point of view, letting that other larger, stronger, quieter life come flowing in. And so on, all day. Standing back from all your natural fussings and frettings; coming in out of the wind.

"We can only do it for moments at first. But from those moments the new sort of life will be spreading though our system: because now we are letting Him work at the right part of us. It is the difference between paint, which is merely laid on the surface, and a dye or stain which soaks right through. He never talked vague, idealistic gas. When He said, 'Be perfect,' He meant it. He meant that we must go in for the full treatment. It is hard; but the sort of compromise we are all hankering after is harder--in fact, it is impossible. It may be hard for an egg to turn into a bird: it would be a jolly sight harder for it to learn to fly while remaining an egg. We are like eggs at present. And you cannot go on indefinitely being just an ordinary, decent egg. We must be hatched or go bad."

Wow. Deep, huh?

Currently, I am reading "The Screwtape Letters" which is just as mind boggling as everything else C.S.L. has written. How clever to take the position of devils in order to make known our human faults and weaknesses.

Well, I won't bore you too much more with details of his life, but one other fact that I thought was awfully wonderful is that one of the people who majorly contributed to C.S. Lewis' conversion was none other than J.R.R. Tolkien, the author of "The Lord of the Rings." The two of them were collegues at Oxford College in the English faculty, and became close friends.

How cool is that??

Well, I suppose I'll end by endorsing his writings. Read them. (But only if you have loads of time to spend pouring over each sentence.) This is not light reading, in the usual sense of the phrase, however I do consider it LIGHT reading as it enlightened me more than most books do.

Oh, Clive. What a guy.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Happy Fathers Day!!

Hi everybody! Sorry I've been so absent lately. I've been quite busy since I moved home. I've been back working at Rimrock with my dad, switching back and forth from the accounting office to the estimating department to the receptionist desk. Although I'm not a big fan of waking up early, I do enjoy the time I get to spend with my dad. Because Jake and I are sort of sharing a car right now, I have to hitch a ride with my dad to get to work a lot of the time. I know he's probably tired of having to wait for me in the mornings, but I enjoy every moment I get to spend with him.

I also feel like I've gotten to know my dad better because I see him in the work environment. I've known him as my father, as my friend, as a teacher, as my bishop and now as my boss, and even after knowing him all my life, I am just barely starting to understand what kind of a person he is. Not only is he an amazingly kind, easygoing person and a hard worker, but he is so honest and just dang smart! Just yesterday I heard quite a bit of a phone conversation he had with one of his clients as we were on our way home from work, and even though this guy was being downright unreasonable and hard headed for three hours, my dad didn't blow up at him like I would have. (Patience is another virtue of his that I do not possess.)

If only there was a way that I could explain in words exactly how I feel about my dad. I guess the only thing I can compare it to is the love that I feel for my Heavenly Father. I'm beyond grateful... to the point of feeling completely indebted. How can I ever repay him? Perhaps the answer is simply: I can't.

Daddy, thanks for being there to support me...


... and thanks for always being someone I can look up to.
I love you!


HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Go Green

Out of breath

I walk to class.
Upbeat.
No coat.
The breeze feels nice.
Thank goodness.

A person in a green shirt
and another
and one more.
Green hat,
green tie,
green necklace.

Shoot.

I look down
at my black shirt and shoes,
my grey jacket,
my blue denim jeans.

Frown.

I was going to wear
green shoes.

Happy Saint Patrick's Day! Take luck!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Merciless


February frosts my windowpane and my expression.
With a sullen glance at the clock on the wall, I can't help but wonder if the cold that has frozen everything outside has taken hold of time as well.
Winter has curled her slender, pale fingers around my world and won't relent her grip until her shift is over.
Will she ever take a year off?

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Peeved.

There's a mountain in my kitchen.

It's made of plates and bowls.
It's overrun the sink and more...
including all our souls.

I'd swear the thing's alive,
a reproductive pile.
I've finally come unhinged at this,
my own customized trial.

You'd never guess that dishes
could irk a coed so...
but OCD is real, you see
and peaks when sinks o'erflow.

My eyes well up with tears.
My roomies just ignore it.
But when your life's in disarray,
you sometimes have to CHORE it!

Day two hundred and five:
My fingers have decayed.
It's hard to type with only stubs,
but it's a worthy trade.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Escuela

Wednesday already?
I cannot believe how fast the days have gone since I started school again. It's fine with me!!

Yesterday I was only supposed to have one class and it was cancelled for the week, so I got to sleep in and lounge around the apartment all day. Woo! I did get up at a reasonable hour... ten thirty... ha... and I wrote an english paper and studied for my math test. Oh, and who could forget American Idol??

This morning I woke up early for my early morning math class. I felt like I did pretty well on the test, and it only took me twenty-five minutes! Yay!

In English we spent most of the time discussing the university budget cuts and all of the protests that are going on this week. I, being the uninformed dunce that I am, have no intention of participating in the rally at the capitol this Friday, but am grateful that class is cancelled because of it.

Political science was interesting, as usual. I really enjoy the lectures, but I think I'm going to really have to study if I want to pass the tests. Eee!

Institute is ALWAYS a joy. My institute teacher has such a wonderful connection with the spirit, and the way he explains gospel principles makes so much sense to me! I didn't realize how much I'd come to count on that class.

CHOIR. Need I say more? I can't even describe the way that I feel when I sing in a group like that. I love being able to release my own emotion into the music to make it more meaningful. I love the way the room reverberates with sound when we come to the climax of the song or when our quiet oohs blend together. The buzzing in my head doesn't stop for a long time after class, and I wish it didn't have to. Fifty minutes is waaaaay too short for a class like that, even after a long day.

The class that was cancelled this week is Life Science. Meh. That's all I can say about it.

So that's school. Besides that, my roommates Lindsey, Courtney, Shelly, Lauren and Caroline keep my life interesting. I love them all so much for different reasons, but mostly because we all get along and have such a good time together. Tonight (after American idol) we made a run to Village Inn for a late night dinner. We all needed a night out, and it was just pure fun to go do something spontaneous for once.

On Sunday after I got back from my visit with my family, I went to ward prayer and the first councillor in the bishopric asked if he could visit with me for a few minutes. He pulled me aside and asked if I would be a visiting teaching coordinator. I don't know exactly what all of my duties will be, but I'm excited! I also contacted my visiting teaching companion, Abigail (Abby) and from what I've found out about her so far, I think we'll be great friends.

Hmmm. Well tomorrow (actually, I guess technically it's today) I'll probably be studying most of the day for my political science test. I'm a tad bit worried about it, but I'm going to try to be positive. Wish me luck!

Thanks for all you do! Have a wonderful day.


Monday, January 26, 2009

YAWN

Well, it's Monday.

School has been going well so far. I've quite enjoyed my classes, and my roommates are all wonderful. I do get really homesick at times, but usually I have homework to take my mind off of it. I don't know if that's a blessing or not...

This weekend was AWESOME. I went home on Friday to see mi familia, and I can't even begin to tell you how much I needed it. It was nice to sleep in my own bed again and to be able to give everyone a hug.

I feel like I should have a ton of stuff to report, but really all I do up here is go to class and do my homework. I guess that's a good thing, but it doesn't make for a very interesting blog post, so I apologize.

I hope you are all doing well! Love you guys. Ciao!